2.02.2005
U Will Know...
"The road is long, with many a winding turns that leads us to who knows where but, I am strong..." ~Donny Hathaway, He Ain't Heavy, He's My Brother
I'm there again. Burning that midnight oil. Tapping away at my laptop creating a world I'd much rather live in than my own. Though I write practically everyday it is on special days like this that I really appreciate the opportunity to escape. Back when I was stuffed behind a desk in good ole' corporate america, I used to dream about waking, stumbling from my bed to my desk and pecking away. I like knowing I'm finally there.
The hardest part? Staying focused. With all the need to do's, must do's, and do I really have to do's, its hard to keep my mind on the characters and their wants and needs. Thankfully they're patient with me, giving me the time I need to run to the post office, return phone calls and/or surf the net. In turn I give them the life they deserve. The one I sometimes wish I had...
But I'm getting there, case in point: Monday night while traveling via subway to see the super talented Tim'm West and the incomparable ButtaFlySoul perform [more on that in a future post] I had a moment. One of those moments you hate having in public. I was sitting there listing to my newest playlist, "Can We Get It Together?" when U Will Know began to bump through my earphones. You remember that song right? From Jason's Lyric? Well like I said I was sitting there, just chilling when Tevin and the others began to sing...
Before I knew it--and this I kid you not--the waterworks were going off. Why? Because those lyrics hit right to the core of what I've been feeling lately. I sat there for a moment like whoa, niggah you're crying! On the fucking A train! What the hell is wrong with you? But as the song progressed, so did my feelings. Shit gets hard man, real hard when you're moving from point A to point B. Especially when you feel like you're going it alone. And so I felt those brothers, with my whole heart and it seemed miraculously, that they felt me too...
As I grew into the song I noticed a young, seemingly progressive couple, sitting across from me watching in wonder. I started to rid my face of the tears but instantly decided against it. Instead, I shut my eyes and allowed the water and the lyrics to cleanse my polluted mind. Three stops later I left the train a changed man, thankful for the divine insight D'Angelo allowed to flow through him as he penned the song, thankful for the voices he used to bring it to life, and overjoyed at my ability to cry openly and freely without guilt.
Damn man, this is shaping up to be a good year!
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I'm there again. Burning that midnight oil. Tapping away at my laptop creating a world I'd much rather live in than my own. Though I write practically everyday it is on special days like this that I really appreciate the opportunity to escape. Back when I was stuffed behind a desk in good ole' corporate america, I used to dream about waking, stumbling from my bed to my desk and pecking away. I like knowing I'm finally there.The hardest part? Staying focused. With all the need to do's, must do's, and do I really have to do's, its hard to keep my mind on the characters and their wants and needs. Thankfully they're patient with me, giving me the time I need to run to the post office, return phone calls and/or surf the net. In turn I give them the life they deserve. The one I sometimes wish I had...
But I'm getting there, case in point: Monday night while traveling via subway to see the super talented Tim'm West and the incomparable ButtaFlySoul perform [more on that in a future post] I had a moment. One of those moments you hate having in public. I was sitting there listing to my newest playlist, "Can We Get It Together?" when U Will Know began to bump through my earphones. You remember that song right? From Jason's Lyric? Well like I said I was sitting there, just chilling when Tevin and the others began to sing...
"When I was a young boy, I had visions of fame. They were wild and they were free, and they were blessed with my name. And then I grew older and I saw what’s to see...that the world is full of pain, and my dreams they left me..."
Before I knew it--and this I kid you not--the waterworks were going off. Why? Because those lyrics hit right to the core of what I've been feeling lately. I sat there for a moment like whoa, niggah you're crying! On the fucking A train! What the hell is wrong with you? But as the song progressed, so did my feelings. Shit gets hard man, real hard when you're moving from point A to point B. Especially when you feel like you're going it alone. And so I felt those brothers, with my whole heart and it seemed miraculously, that they felt me too...
As I grew into the song I noticed a young, seemingly progressive couple, sitting across from me watching in wonder. I started to rid my face of the tears but instantly decided against it. Instead, I shut my eyes and allowed the water and the lyrics to cleanse my polluted mind. Three stops later I left the train a changed man, thankful for the divine insight D'Angelo allowed to flow through him as he penned the song, thankful for the voices he used to bring it to life, and overjoyed at my ability to cry openly and freely without guilt.
Damn man, this is shaping up to be a good year!
